Love without guarantees
You say you long for a lover, but are you ready for the truth of such a deep connection to burn through all your layers of protection?
Protections you've built to keep you away from love. To keep you from the inherent heartbreak of risking all your heart.
Are you ready to relax into the knowingness that your lover will perish and die?
Are you ready to let your sword down and watch your ideas of how love should look be proven inadequate?
Do you know your "why" lurking beneath that longing for love?
Is it still approached from a place of seeking security? Refuge from reality? A hiding place from the vulnerability and tenderness of being human?
Is it just another substance to alter your consciousness, bringing you a sense of timelessness and an unearned sense of hope?
Is it a longing for completion, for finally feeling seen, received, loved, ENOUGH?
Can any single person carry the weight of that mission?
Can any relationship carry the pressure of being your sole connection point to the source?
Does your longing for love carry the same vibration of seeking certainty? Solid ground? Something to help you forget that you are a mystery unto itself?
Can you see your lover not as someone to validate your worth, a transactional security to fend off your aloneness, or a shiny new toy to play with, but as a glorious sovereign being who is also a mystery unto himself?
There are no guarantees in love. There is recognition, remembrance, and a spontaneous overflow of aliveness and grace. Yes, but there are no guarantees.
Unless you're willing to get intimate with the "why" of your longing, vibrating it with another being at any meaningful depth is challenging.
Until then, we are stuck in the loop of our longing coloured by the layers of our conditioning presenting themselves as our reality.